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Sunday, July 25, 2010



There was once I went to a fun fair near my grandma's house in Malaysia..
I finished drinking a drink that I bought,
I hold on to the plastic cup looking for a rubbish bin..
my cousin 'Why are you holding on to it? Just throw on the floor la'
my guilty conscience act up immediately telling me not to throw. 
Singapore's education on this is good yeah? hahas..
But all the way, there's not even a rubbish bin!
I was reaching my uncle's car, so I just threw it on a grass patch.. :x
I was very guilty for doing this, imagine if no one clears the cup,
it will stay there for another 1000 years before it decompose!! 

I really wished that the N(A)s in my school can study Literature, 
I find Lit very very fun and I like the old flowery english..
I love it even more when Miss Shen gave us a midsummer night's dream script for oral practice..
'O, why rebuke you him that love you so?'
hahas.. 

Came across this quote from Fb, credit to Miss Idzhana:
Do not expect anything in return,
do not expect your efforts to be appreciated,
your genius to be discovered,
your love to be understood. 

I find this very very true~ 
Just don't expect too much, and you won't be too disappointed. 

Ignorace and error are necessary on life, just like bread and butter. 



❤ Perché ti amo così ? 4:05 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2010




The Window ShopperRandom Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLD)

The Window Shopper

Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You areThe Window Shopper.

You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You’re a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it’s likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You’ve had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there’ll be much more to come.

Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you’re especially capable of obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns.

Your ideal match is someone who’ll love you back with equal fire, and someone you’ve grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you’re drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs.


LOL.


❤ Perché ti amo così ? 6:00 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2010



Today passed in a blur.
Thought math class seem really slow, it was boring,
especially when Miss Neo explains everything so slowly..
but funny things did happen :x
Miss Neo pronounced 'prism' as 'prisiem' and 'toblerone' as 'toblone'
hahas.. opps. :x
During the class, Miss Neo looked at me and Amirus and said
'I have 2 person in this class that should be in the other one'
 The feeling was 'opps, haha :x' LOL. 
After lunch was english, I was shocked to see Miss Shen in class.
It's suppose to be Mdm Yasmin.
But well, Mdm Yasmin only came in in the last 10 mins..
So, Miss Shen showed us this bot fly in Africa that will lay egg under human skin,
and the process whereby they take out the larvae. 
it's very very gross. 
When our class 'ewww-ed' and 'owww-ed' while watching, 
Miss Shen was laughing very hard.. LOL. 
After that she showed us a document about tsetse fly.
So, today in english is like learning biology, 
I learnt that the bot fly will only cause infection but a tsetse fly can cause death,
while bot fly infection is real gross and tsetse fly parasite can't be seen. 

Listening Compre's today..
We're in the class by 2.30pm
And so we listened to 92.4 or smth.
It's all classical music, so many fell asleep,
I almost did, but I keep waking myself up because if I were to sleep, 
I would be blur when I wake up.
It goes alright, except for 4 dilemmas that I had in the questions..
Well, after the exam, I compared answers with a few people, 
and, I can confirm that I have one wrong? Well, 18/20 is not bad.
But, I really need a 20/20.. Well, exam's over, I can't do anything.
Just hoped that my result will be better!! 
Anticipated for after National Day, as it will be when I will get my chinese result. 
Praying hard that I will get the result that I will be satisfied with. 

Ignorance and error are necessary in life, just like bread and butter. 



❤ Perché ti amo così ? 5:06 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2010



Chinese oral today.
It's kinda disastrous..
I stuttered many times while reading the passage,
and I read back my sentence when I read the word wrongly,
which is, a taboo to do so.
The conversation's topic is to compare online learning and learning at school.
The teacher said the question too fast and I could not catch it.
So I asked her to say it again,
and she said it so very slowly. LOL.
I did not have much to say, and about twice in between,
I could not express myself well as the word keep appearing in my mind as english..
So overall, when the teacher asked me a question,
I answered only around three sentence.
And my pauses were very, very long.
I was so disappointed with myself that I cried when Mdm Yasmin asked me about it..
And so she told me that what is important is the quality than the quantity..
After awhile, Miss Ho saw me crying and asked me why..
They asked me what I said, and they told me that I got the points well..
And the reading is only 10 marks, I do not have to worry so much.
But, I really do want to get a distinction for my overall chinese..
This mean that I have to get a high distinction for oral to have a higher chance of getting a distinction for my chinese.
I am so afraid that I might lose my distinction for oral.

ignorance and error are necessary in life.


❤ Perché ti amo così ? 4:04 PM

Monday, July 5, 2010



I shouldn't feel so upset. Since you're no longer close to me..
I shouldn't feel so upset that you broke your promise..
I shouldn't feel jealous when you go with them..
I shouldn't feel so close to you now.. 
maybe, I'm still not adapted to reality life..
oh well~




❤ Perché ti amo così ? 2:39 PM

Saturday, July 3, 2010



Slept at 1pm plus yesterday night and woke up at 6plus today..
It was so tiring that I keep nodding to sleep today..
Although it's tiring, but I had lots of fun..
At around 8am, the guys called my cousin telling that they're on the way..
But we heard their horning of the car once we step on the first floor..
We made the groom and the 'brothers' do 30 push ups, but they cheated with the counting..
After the push ups, we gave them bread that have fillings such as ginger, onions and bittergourd..
Those ingredients are cut into small chunks..
We though that we will be seeing them with some expression, but they seem to enjoy it(epic fail)
After they finish eating, we want them to do 30 squats while holding their ears..
This time, we count..
They were soooo tired, so we gave them discount, 28 of them.. (haha)
Right after, we asked if they were thristy.. And we gave them lemon juice(fresh squeezed,mixed with water la, we're not so bad)
This time, their faces change, coz the juice is really sour! hahahaha..
We gave them another round of food, biscuits(wasabi potato biscuits with additional wasabi)
We told them to eat it all in one..
Some did it, and one made a sound like *ohwwwww* and then we went *hahahahahaha*
LOLLOL..
Till then, we still didn't let them in the groom then went *please, let me in, please* in a very pitiful voice..
We gave them one last mission, to blow flour from a plate, there are papers inside..
2 are written 'key' and 'kiss' respectively..
The groom luckily picked 'key', but the rest picked the rest of the paper too!
So we asked the 'brother' that got 'kiss' to kiss the groom and photo will be taken..
They stand there for awhile, then finally he kissed him on the cheek with the memo paper in between..
So we let them in the house..
But we ran to the second floor and blocked the room door of the bride's..
We asked him to say 10 reasons why he loved her..
He gave us ridiculous answers though..
the last one's 'I will love her forever and she'll be ony one and only'
Soooo, we let him in, and the photo taking starts..
I 'm very tired now, so there's what happended in the morning~

take care peeps,
xiaoxi


ignorance and error are necessary in life, just like bread and water.


❤ Perché ti amo così ? 11:50 PM

Thursday, July 1, 2010



Few days ago,
I asked my mum about the nenek that I always find when I go to metta..
Mum said she had passed away few weeks ago..
The nenek lived alone away from her children..
She fell down few times in the market..
The last one, she was admitted into the hospital..
Although nenek can only speak malay, and I only know a few words,
I liked her lots..
She's a very funny person..
Nenek, R.I.P..
I miss you..




❤ Perché ti amo così ? 9:24 PM